A thought from Jason, my husband and and soon to be daddy to our Little One.
Am I going to be good enough? Do I have what it takes to lead this little one in a healthy fulfilling life? Do I have what it takes to be a father, never mind being a good father?!? I’m just not good enough… what was I thinking?
The thought of being responsible for another life is just crazy! It’s nuts! I can barely keep it together in my own life and now I have to look after another!?!
How can I honestly be trusted to look after someone other than myself?
But then it hit me…
“For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16 NLT).
It took me while to reach the point where I began to understand the love of YWHW, but this verse made it clear.
I don’t need to have it all together… I don’t need to be ‘ready’ to be a father… I don’t have to be perfect… I can just be me…
Because of Jesus’ grace I can take comfort in knowing that I don’t need to have it all together… If I did, what would the point of God sending Jesus to earth be?
I don’t need to be the perfect father, because He already is and He will help me strive to be the very best father I can be.
So… I’m going to enjoy the ride as a father to be, and I’ll enjoy the ride even more when our Little One arrives.
I know this, because of the way he loves me.
I know this, because when he was ready for us to begin this process, he patiently waited for me to be ready.
I know this, because of his gentle ways, his love for our nieces, nephews and God-children, his child-like ways with each child.
He has the amazing ability to get right down to each child’s level, meet them where they’re at, and no matter how silly he may look to us fellow grown ups, he will be that silly clown that our nieces, nephews and God-children love.
He is Uncle J – that uncle that goes out of his way to be embarrassing, because he loves them. He goes out of his way to ask silly questions and say silly things, so the child can shine. He will tickle, cuddle, love, hug, play-wrestle, high-5.
He is Uncle J. I cannot wait to see him become Jason, aka Daddy.